Live Big. Be Big.

Hey Abyss,

I'm back in Montreal!

It's surreal to me that school is back in session tomorrow. I am really looking forward to seeing everyone again and finding out more about the first show: Lion In the Streets by Judith Thompson. We have already been contacted by the costume designer and my classmates and I are getting our measurements taken tomorrow, which is just -- nuts. I remember sitting in 1st year watching the 3rd years and thinking that I had such a long road ahead of me before I could grace the Monument stage.

And now, here I am!

Shift --> Towards the end of last week I was fortunate enough to grab a coffee with Cory Bowles after he wrapped up his directorial duties on the Trailer Park Boys, Season 8. A few weeks ago I had never had the chance to meet Cory, we had only really talked via Twitter and Facebook, but I am so glad that he agreed to meet with me. See, we are both from Truro, Nova Scotia and he has accomplished a lot in his career (take a gander above) and I continue to be inspired by him and his dedication to making outstanding work.

In our conversation we talked a lot about how when artistic communities start to get sedentary it inevitably lowers the standard of artistic output which then alters what the general public considers "worth their money". This then leads the artists into a decline in commitment to the work and therefore no need to do challenging work, which is extremely dangerous. This conclusion lead us to talk about Cory's career and how he always strives for the top. Every project he involves himself with he aims to win. He puts a copious amount of time and work into making sure that it is his best output possible in that moment. Now, of course no one can achieve complete perfection but what is the harm in trying!

This brings me to my post-point: Why not just set an impossible goal for yourself and strive toward it every day? That may seem ludicrous...but in fact if you keep your standard of work and goals up consistently, then you simply can't fail. You only have to try harder then you did yesterday, make more connections, dedicate more time to challenging yourself artistically, challenge yourself to dedicate more time to your art. And then when people tell you it won't work, prove them wrong.

The only way we can fail is telling ourselves that we will.

And likewise for the opposite.

It is this ideology that I am trying hard to implement in myself, because at the end of my life am I going to be happy that I half-assed a lot of things and only cared about a few. Or am I going to have a fuller life by dedicating every ounce of myself to every project I choose? I, think the latter. Of course, I am realistic and there are going to be things that I loathe and complain about, but in those instances I should prove to myself that I may be cutting myself off from learning something from those experiences. I would rather walk away educated than depressed and mentally exhausted from complaining.

So, if we want big things to happen to us, then we have to think big and do what we want, not what everyone thinks might be best. Surprise ourselves, take chances, learn from our mistakes, laugh at ourselves and STOP OVER-THINKING because that only leads to making excuses for not trying. And I am the living example of that. I have cut myself out of so many experiences because I needed to analyze every potential outcome and ended up missing the boat and ticking off everyone around me.

But alas, things will change!

Right now, I want to bring attention to the fact that All the Wrong Reasons is premiering at the Toronto International Film Festival to a sold out audience on the 8th! And, for those of you who may have missed it,  I am featured in the trailer for the film which was uploaded by Entertainment Weekly earlier last week.

All the Wrong Reasons Trailer!

Also, the short film BONE DEEP, which I am headlining, premieres next week at the Atlantic Film Festival in Halifax, Nova Scotia!

That is all for now, got to get some sleep before school tomorrow!

Night Abyss.

He Can Be Taught!

Hey Abyss,

I am currently looking over all the posts that I have written this summer and am surprised at how quickly it has all gone by. It seems like just yesterday I was leaving for Ottawa and now here I am leaving for Montreal in 8 days!

The older I get the quicker time passes.

As I am reading and recalling these last 4 months I am really proud of what conclusions I have come too, and the goals I have set for myself going into my 3rd and FINAL year at the National Theatre School of Canada. No longer will I be able to say, that's where I am going, or that I have one more year left.

Now, life as a "Big Actor" begins.

Everything we do this year is in preparation for us moving into the real world, away from our protective walls where we always have opportunities and roles to play with. Where people are constantly supporting us regardless of our behaviour and flaws. Where we have the freedom to fail and retry until we understand and make progress. It all comes down to these last few months, we will never have these beautiful and gracious times again.

Things change and become necessity rather than compliance. Discipline has to start coming from within, not from watching everyone else. The abilities that we have perfected (or neglected) become our meal ticket. Huge studio spaces now transform into small bachelor apartments, and collaborators go back to their community instead of coming to ours.

This all might sound depressing and morbid, but for me it is a realization and a motivator to take advantage of every opportunity I have left this year. To learn as much as I can from every person who walks through those doors, to be open to change and possibility. To expand the way I think and work. To hold that certificate in May and know that I did everything I possibly could to get the education I deserved. Now, I know that this school is not the end all and be all. I know that I will continue to learn from every team and person I work with until the day I die.

But I have goals, as usual.

To summarize: Upon completion I want to have a strong idea of what I am capable of and where I still have room to grow, I want to listen and hear everything. I want to stay positive, even in the desperate times. I want to encourage and promote my classmates instead of bringing them down. I want to create strong and compelling work with every role I get, not just the ones I like. I want to make good impression and stay connected with the people who inspire me. I want to continue working on my self discipline and making sure I will always take care of myself in Mind, Body and Soul.

I know for those of you reading this you are like, "Wow, this kid is really setting himself up for disappointment...that's a lot of goals to fulfil in 8 months..."

I am aware. I like having a check list to work from. I have had so many great (and no so great) experiences this summer that I feel like I have, deeply, changed for the better. I have come to some huge realizations about myself and cannot wait to put them into action in a setting that I have known for two years. This is my time to prove that I am more than capable of this career and I that I will fight to keep it.

BOOM!

Also, great news All the Wrong Reason's will be making its world premiere at TIFF this year! If you are in the area check me out as the Laughing Clerk. And, this weekend I was able to see a rough cut of BONE DEEP (the short film I was in towards the start of the summer) and I am really impressed with how it turned out and cannot wait for it to premiere here in Halifax at the Atlantic Film Festival! 

That's all for tonight; I'm on a Digimon kick. Thanks Netflix.

Night Abyss.

Summer is Here and I am Inside.

Hey,

Despite the depressing vibe emanating from my entry title; I am very well. I was outside for most of the morning showing a good friend of mine the lay of the land and some of my favourite spots in Montreal. She is here on her "Grad Trip" and wanted to see some of the city, and seeing as it is beautiful out I leapt at the opportunity to show her around!

There is officially one week of school left, and even if I couldn't read a calendar, I can feel it in the air. It's the time of year where things start to pick up and change, the days become longer and productivity seems possible again, because not only do I feel like getting more done but I can be outside doing it! I was talking to a friend of mine last night about how things are changing, because we have come to the end of an era. Most people anticipated that 2012 was the end, and that there wouldn't be anything after that, but thankfully there is and I am so excited to see what the rest of this year brings for me personally and artistically.

I was filling out a form for a scholarship and it asked for the the start and finish dates of the program I intend to use the money for. As I wrote out May 2014 for the end date, it struck me that the end is so close. This part of my life that seemed so far away two summers ago, is one year from now. Life is slowly creeping up, and as much as I don't want to wish away the time, I feel so ready for my final year at NTS.

Last night, I went to see the New Words Festival Shows which are the efforts of all the third year graduates of the Playwriting, Production, Set and Costume Design, and Acting programs and I really enjoyed myself. The first, You Can Do Whatever You Want, was written by Jesse Stong and chronicled the lives of three generations of women in a small town. It was beautiful. I love stories about families and the struggles of reality. The second, Model Wanted, was written by Step Taylor and was so fascinating, I thought each character was deeply interesting and well developed, and the ending left me with this raw exposed nerve feeling that I love having. These experiences made me so excited to see what we will be working with next year.

As time goes on here, I realize how my classmates and I are continually changing and discovering who we are, what we like and don't like and what our futures may hold for us. And since the start of meeting them all I knew our journeys here and in our futures would be so different and I am thrilled to see where we all go after this time together. Life is remarkable and as many struggles that I have had over the last two years, I know that every one of them was necessary for me to be where I am right now. I am slowly discovering clarity over what I want for myself artistically and that is a good feeling.

My summer is shaping up to be quite full of plans and arrangements and I am really excited for the experiences that lie within them. I need to start packing, but it comes down to what do I really need? I really want to indulge in simplicity this summer, and truly live in the present rather than constantly searching for what is coming down the tubes. The more serene my summer is the more time I can dedicate to my work being the best it can be. And really, I would rather it be the best, then be almost the best but then I got distracted with this new project that I really like.

I think that wraps up my thoughts for the day. Bring on the final week.

Jeremy Webb is the meanest director in Halifax (I hope this brings a smile to your face.)

Night Abyss.

March Break!

Hey Abyss,

It's finally March Break, I am so excited to finally have a break!

This last week has been a whirlwind; we did 5 shows of The Seagull and I also had my Solo Show Tutorial. That doesn't sound like a lot but it is, I can promise you.

Looking back on the experience, despite my initial hesitations about it, it was truly amazing and I am so grateful to have worked with Tanja on this wonderful show. It challenged me in so many ways and her supportive and blunt ways only made it more successful. Thank you :)

The weeks leading up to now have been rather introspective for me and I have solidified a lot of my personal and artistic goals. I have also started to understand that everything takes time and although I am becoming aware of the things that will help me grow, I have to give them the time to flourish in myself. Instead of demanding growth and beating myself up for it not happening right away.

Tanja called me on owning my wins today in our "end of project interview" and it has never rang more crucial. I am very reliant on the opinions of other people when it comes to my work and life. This trait is extremely deadly in myself and I am glad that she put it out there for me. I am learning how to feel confident in my choices regardless of how people react, or how they feel. It is about me and my choices and how I choose to express myself.

This seems elementary, but I have always struggled with feeling good about my ideas. Especially here at NTS due to the massive amounts of talent that abound. In order for me to become stronger in myself as a young man and artist this issue needs to be resolved.

I have had a few people come into my life lately that have shown me what my life could be like without my insecurities, and it is far better. So, my mission to myself is to continually do what I love and work towards that positive and brave person that I know I a capable of being.

Life is so funny sometimes.

I am truly blessed.

When I take the time to actually listen to what's around me, as well as myself, I learn so much. This week is going to be about me. I have started a cleanse of my mind and body and really want to enjoy and learn this March Break.

I am going to see Montreal this week, finally, and focus on my Solo Show.

That is a promise. (I am full of promises today...)

And on that note I am going to take a shower and begin with going to see Twelfth Night at the Monument - Nationale!

Here is a goofy photo of my character from The Seagull.

Night Abyss

And That's a Wrap!

Hey,

Alright so long time no post, as per usual..

I have been super busy with auditions for school and shows and what not so I am back to fill you  in like a jelly filled pastry.

As you were aware I was in Montreal for a bit auditioning for the National Theatre School of Canada. I was extremely nervous and felt like I had completely failed at life and had no chance of being accepted. I was on my way to the airport the following day feeling satisfied that I had seen most of the beautiful city that is Montreal, when I received the greatest phone call of my life thus far. I am now one of the 12 in Canada to be accepted to the National theatre School! I am stoked beyond reason and cannot wait to move in September.

I am currently looking for accommodations and will be pursuing that a little more closer to the actual date. I am finally moving out of my apartment and will be moving back in with my buddy from last summer. Stoked x2.

After I got back from Montreal I went right into filming Bye Bye Blackbird, which is the new title, and have been on set everyday until yesterday. It was such and awesome experience and I am so grateful to have had it. The talent that I was working with is phenomenal. I will post some links below regarding the film.

In short that is basically what has been going on over the last 2 weeks. Super busy and super great.

I have two auditions this week, one for a short film and one for the TV series Haven. Hopefully those will result in work.

I am going to actually try and commit to more regular posting...seriously.

http://www.immunityforhealth.com/news/Bye-Bye-Blackbird-(film).html here are the links.

night abyss!

Back to Routine; Excitement vs. Frightment

Hello,

I think it has been just shy of a week since last post, so it is due time for one!

First of all; School is back in session tomorrow which proves both exciting and frightening at the same time. I am excited to get back into the educational and routine aspects, but have procrastinated amazingly over the break and am quite worried that I will be behind.

This is probably the case, who am I kidding.

I have spent most of the day reading and memorizing monologues and plays, which people say doesn't take as long as reading a book but I find it just as time consuming. For those of you who may know me I have a very short attention span and although I like to read, especially plays, I find it hard to stay focused.

Also, my cats have been extremely hyperactive recently and it is stressing me out. They are seriously like monkeys jumping everywhere and ignoring me. Worse than kids sometimes.

I applied to NTS, George Brown and Sheridan today though, so I feel extremely excited and frightened about that as well. I was talking to one of my close friends tonight who is currently at Ryerson, which i will be applying to later on when I have the money, and he is validating the intimidating process of audition for the schools. I guess there is just some days where I feel like I am no better than the average kid trying to make it as an actor. Like, my friend was saying that if there is like 1500 kids that audition there is a third of them that just plain suck, then there are some that are good, and then the last third are the ones that are your competition. I just feel like even the bad kids are the competition, like who is saying that I am in the last third? I guess that is my mission to make sure I am in the best portion. I am just intimidated because I have such short amounts of time to prepare everything. But alas, the job of an actor.

I just want to get accepted at least somewhere, you know, for my dignity. That I am not a complete waste of life. I always feel like I don't have enough time for things, like if I don't go for things now I wont have a chance later. I really just want to feel like I am doing the most in my life. I have this phobia of becoming a deadbeat, among other things.

Last weekend I took part in a show called Teenage Sex Party written by Thom Fitzgerald. I performed it at an event called 24 hour theatre, something I stumbled upon that has been happening for 5 years! It was such an awesome experience due to the time restraint of 24 hours. You as actors get the script for the latter of the 24 hours and have 12 to make it a show with costumes lighting and sound. Ours turned out great. Surprisingly we had a great turnout for audience with some rather important people in it.


I will continue filming the short film in the next coming weeks and am looking forward to that.

I hate winter.

I lost my mittens.

and I refuse to wear long johns.

I should live in Florida.

I have school tomorrow so I am going to get ready for bed now. I will do my best to keep with the updates.

Night, Abyss.

I Now Understand Hiatus

Abyss,

I know this seems to be a reoccurring situation, but I do apologize for the lack of posts. It has been over a month since my last entry and quite a bit has happened. I really want to make one of my New Year Resolutions to post at least weekly, similar to what I stated earlier in these posts. Except I will actually follow through.

I discovered that I can totally post from my iPhone, yet another convenience. So with this new found information I can guarantee at least a post a week. My life may not be that exciting but hopefully you find enjoyment out of my obscene ramblings. Anyway, let's get down to business!

School for winter break ended last Thursday and I miss it already, the term went by quicker than expected and I learned so much. Tue teachers are all stellar human beings and I wish I could just read biographies on all of them. They seem to have been through so many experiences in their lives. Alas, I do not have this option to read about them, instead I have a giant list of plays that needs to be read before January 3rd.

I have made a point to get all my application things done before I head back to school. So that is presently what I am working on. Majority of the schools I am applying to are in Toronto and it is costing me a pretty penny to just apply, this doesn't include the airfare and possible audition fees as well. It is going to probably end up costing me as much as my first term tuition! but I need education, so it will hopefully be worth it if I actually get accepted.

I was recently involved with a couple of things; over the weekend I was in a short film that will continue filming in January as well as a work shop that is in preparation for a provincial tour, I have yet to find out if I will be cast in the tour solely due to the fact that they are casting the female lead(opposite me) from Toronto. So the whole workshop cast is just waiting to hear from the director as to whether will will be going on tour. I would obviously jump at the opportunity to tour and it would give me a credit towards my equity status, which of course is also gladly accepted. I am still working my butt of to get my Equity/ACTRA status before I head off to Toronto.

Also in the works is a show I putting together, Monster by Daniel MacIvor. I have recently obtained his one man show and emailed him about receiving the rights to it so that I can perform it this summer in my hometown and save the money for school so I can avoid student loans as much as possible. I have to unfortunately wait for a response from him until I can really put my plan into action, but I am hoping he will respond soon enough.

That is essentially it in my life at the moment. I am just about to leave for work and will talk to you tomorrow!

Night Abyss

The Comeback!

Hey there,

Shame on me: first thing on the docket.

I am currently making pizza and reading a script that I am performing tomorrow evening. For a non-employed actor at the moment I have been consecutively working. Last week and the week before that I was in the encore performance of the Cabaret show that I had done earlier. We performed it for the final time last weekend in attempt to raise money for a little girl who is waiting to have an operation. It was the best one to date, the show that is. And like I said, this week, tomorrow I am doing a performance with a whole new group of actors that I was recently introduced to. They seem like really awesome people. Ironically one of them is my Voice teacher at school and he was unaware I was in the production till I was brought in recently. It provided for awkward conversation, but also I think we will be able to connect on a further basis than school. I thank my friend for helping me get the gig, he really believes in me as an actor and that is really inspiring to me to know that people feel positive about me. So again, my friend, thank you.

This feels like the appropriate time to give an audition update: Nothing film in a while. although there is a crap-load of commercials being shot in my city. Unfortunately I am not a burly man with a beard, so unless I can grow a white plethora of facial hair and gain 60 pounds I do not have an opportunity to audition. Soon though, if I think hard enough.

Class is going great, all my teachers bring really interesting methods and exercises to class. I am really enjoying the experience. Can't wait for things to keep getting better.

I am back in a rhythm and blues stage. I am obsessively listening to the genre all the time. I love it.

If you are bored, check this out:
http://www.vevo.com/watch/willow/whip-my-hair/USSM21001602

It's Will Smith's Daughter!!! She is really great. Crazy potential. I just came across her the other day.

Back to me. That is really all that is going on at the moment. Oh I get to be told how blind I am tomorrow which will be a wonderful time filled with laughter and merriment.

And my year project, other than being an apt pupil and acting, is writing a one man show that I will be performing in my home town during the summer. So, any ideas as to what I should do? Give me some ideas Abyss.

Peace

Sometimes I feel like a Priest . . .

Man Oh Man,


11 days since my last post! Sorry Abyss, I have been super busy, as per always. I am going to do my best to at least (the stress on least) have an entry a week. That's my goal. So here we go...

I love my day job, I say that in the most sincere way possible. I really do love it. The people whom I have to service however I do not enjoy. The last few days for me have been more painstaking than usual. I have had the most difficult customers I think I have ever dealt with. It is awful how people think they have the right to treat you like crap because you are a young person and are working. Personally, those are rather illegitimate excuses to have it out for someone, especially someone who's generation are the people who are going to be changing your diapers and writing your prescriptions.

Just food for thought.

I understand that it is a two way street, for all those devil's advocates out there reading this. Let me assure you I could have been more nice, but when you offend me I get defensive. So again, reiterating the two way street; I will be nice to you if you are nice to me. I always do my best to be a positive person when it comes to customer service because you are the face of the company you represent, so I strive to be pleasant to deal with.

In all  honesty though, sometimes I actually feel like a priest.

Which was not part of my job listing.

Today, a man came in with his father (no pun intended) and felt the need to disclose how much money the man was making and how many Master Degrees he had and ranted on and on about his life in general and how phones are designed badly because the end call button is also the power off button. After explaining that I myself could not call up Samsung and tell them that their, and the rest of the companies, cellphone designs are ridiculous for people with 5 Masters Degrees to understand I was actually considering telling him to also do a few "Hail Mary" --s before he left. I am all for listening to some people ramble sometimes, but my store is the busiest in our region and there were other people waiting. It is hard to keep the pleasantries up at that rate.

I mean of course this is customer service and I know there will be the random crazies, but alas I get frustrated easily when things aren't compliant to the over all situation, probably due to my organization needs. I am hoping for a more productive day tomorrow.

Audition update: Nothing yet. I have been enlisted to participate in a show for one night only in attempts  to raise money for a young girl who is dying of cancer. A cause I am very eager to aid in. That is on October 4.


Also, school starts Monday. I am stoked!

Bought some sweatpants from GAP and I will be looking fresh the first day.

As much of a paradox as that may seem due to the purchase of sweatpants.

Anyway, G'night AByss.

25 cents for a warm feeling.

I never thought that I would be so anxious for school to start. Alas, I am.

I am excited to meet new people and just start to push myself again. Routine is a must with Wayne.

Audition update: They are still casting for the educational video.

Life is going at a good pace as per usual. We had a hurricane here the other day and I was without power for a bit. I was able to discover what it is like to shower blind and in the cold. An experience that I would have probably never have been able to experience otherwise. So thanks hurricane.

My car was also affected by the hurricane. Nothing dire, other than the fact that my muffler now sounds like it is missing. You know those people who drive down the road like a bat out of hell with the crappiest sounding muffler or lack there of and you always yell at them, "GET A MUFFLER!!"

I am now the recipient of those phrases.

The awful part is that I just had a new muffler installed so I am at a loss. Damn hurricane.

But I guess the positive thing is that I still have a house and my eyes and at least a muffler of some kind.

Today was my day off so I slept in till noon and then woke up and went to get shaving cream. That is about the extent of my day. Shaving was a priority but shower was not.

I also, in my post sleep state, went to my first laundromat. It was a rather interesting experience.

I always judge when I need to do laundry by the amount of clean underwear I have left. Now to fully understand the desperation of my need for clean clothes you have to understand how much underwear I have.

I have a lot.

I was getting low so I felt it was definitely time.

I walked in and there was only one person there; the owner. She was an interesting woman who looked about late thirties. She was middle eastern and she greeted me with a smile saying. "You have the place to yourself!"

I took her kind words of solitude as a sign that I could be friendly with her and I admitted that I had never partook the laundromat thing before. She reassured me that it was easy and we shared a moment watching the dry cycles of my underwear go round and round. I pictured her seeing some weird things in her time here.

The laundromat was of typical appearance except for the glorious Mrs. Pacman arcade game at the back of the room. I was in love. It was this moment that I decided that if I ever made enough money I would buy this machine off of this woman and give her more than she wants for it for her generosity of helping me wash my sweaters. I feel that is only fair.

Needless to say I washed all my clothes for under 10 bucks. I was happy and underwear laden again.

There is nothing like warm clean clothes.

New England Clam Chower... Is that the red or the white?

Alright Abyss,


Today at work was rather uneventful, just a normal day with normal problems. I suspected my car battery to die but alas I was rewarded with a smooth drive home. I called the scholarship people and I am still in limbo regarding my recipient status. They said they should hopefully know, the operative word being hopefully, by tomorrow.

Knowing myself, I am going to do all of this work for this scholarship and it is going to go to some Joe who didn't do a stinking thing for it. That's always how us average people's lives work out. Regardless, I am still just plain old waiting; like and actor should.

I have rehearsal in an hour and hopefully it will be a good time tonight. We had a run through on Tuesday and it went okay I think. It is always hard to tell with rehearsal how it will fair in the final run.I am having one of those days where I don't want to be seen by the public, this is due to my lack of hair gel and contacts, and I am going to have to make out with two girls tonight. Now under normal circumstance, as a man, this would be perfectly fine, and I am totally game for it. I just feel bad for the girls.

Wayne without contacts or hair gel = picture a shrill scream from an old horror movie.

Again, no word from anything that I auditioned for recently, I guess that is also pending.

So, a pretty basic day. Oh, and I am getting a kitten.

Day 2: Ass Kicked

My body rejected me this morning.

As per usual.

I had to work at 8am this morning with only 4 hours of sleep, it was brutal. I went to work and actually slept on the floor while doing inventory. I was able to catch up some during this time, thus continuing my shift in overtired mode. This is another complexity I will never fully understand.

At my job we are paid on both commission and an hourly rate. This makes things quite competitive, and as those who know me, I am quite competitive. I am trying to sell as much as I can this month and meet my targets because I have the goal to be top sales in our store month over month. It is silly how menial this is but it is all I have for excitement right now in my life, sans girlfriend and school starting soon. On this topic, I have been accepted into a one year theatre intensive program at the local theatre in the city I am residing. The issue is that I am an average dude, who is trying to become an actor. This translates into . . . I am broke. So to avoid the issue of me trying to scrounge up the money to pay for the program I have applied for the scholarship associated with it. I feel I should be the recipient due to the fact that I put a lot of hard work into gathering the best recommendations for myself and making myself sound poor; I contemplated saying that I was raised by goats (which is not an exaggeration at all). I was accepted into the program in early July and was told that they would be making the decision for the scholarship towards the end of the month because the deposit for holding your place was due August 13, 2010.

I havent heard a 'yes' or 'no' yet.

Check the date.

Yeah I am a little miffed.

I mean the least they could do is tell me that I didn't get it so I could stop stressing, but no, they would rather watch me writhe in question like an ant beneath a sun-glazed magnifying glass. This scholarship is a crucial part to my life come September. I say this because if I don't get it I am just continuing to work full time until I can audition for the bigger schools across Canada for acting. Now, if I do get I am going to be able to train and be more prepared for the schools when audition time comes around. My roommate and I have discussed it to death and him and I both agree that I am going to feel more comfortable with pre-training than none at all and be going in blind. This is coming from the guy who was accepted into the most prestigious theatre school in Canada first time out, so I kind of trust him.

I haven't heard anything back from the commercials that I auditioned for last Friday, and certainly nothing from the audition yesterday. Acting is a waiting game. Perhaps you wouldn't think this, but it is true on so many levels it is strange people don't always think of the two of the simultaneously. I find things to be most effective when I don't dwell on the outcomes, whether they be positive or negative. The good thing right now is that I am preparing for a show next week. I have been working on it for the last four months and we are finally nearing the performance; which is my favorite part. The show is making its world premier in my city and I am the lead. I am excited because it has been so long since I have done a live show and my body needs it like a cocaine addict needs another hit. The adrenaline is was binds me to the stage. That and the reaction from the audience when you fully suspend their disbelief. More on this later...

I finished my work day early because I had come in at the crack of dawn, or at least what seemed like it. And as I finally get into my car to drive home it doesn't start. That right, the battery just didn't pick up. So I walked home in the blazing heat that makes me believe that ice caps are in fact melting. Now here I am, sitting on the couch that my roommate found in the garbage, attempting to find a way to kill fruit flies. Any suggestions?


All the Best Abyss.